My Huckleberry Finn
My Brother
Please forgive me
Don’t think I can stand up today
My body so weak with words I cannot say
Regret, how it becomes the memories we neglect
I miss our conversations be they so far in day
No foolish pride to be my resolute
When I become the worst excuse
No friends left to pull away the recluse
Cursing down every cloud we tried to drown
Staring into the lake
Watching eyes close with her princess crown
Help my dear Brother
I lost myself again this day
How I miss the love of our Mother
Her spirit how it speaks to me within the thunder
Do you think she will be proud of me some day
Always will I try and be your keeper
With secrets we never need say
Behind you to wickets in every step
I lost my favourite glove again today
Come so far from crashing cars
Still can I hear her drowning lungs like it was yesterday
Always shall it be with me, this anchor
Dragging it down the dark hallway
Hold me dear Brother
What words we spoke above a grave
Digging away to bury our better years
Just to stare with no words to say
How the dread of Father becomes our fear
The terror of his footsteps forever held to my nightmare
Come hide with me under the bed with Mothers prayer
Close our eyes and take us back to the town fare
Happier I be in thought of sunny days
By that river where we fish forever
With no need of any word to complain
No home with nice biscuits can we return
When troubled storms be coming our way
Help me dear Brother
My heart has fallen to pieces again this day
I wore my best smile but she won’t even look my way
Fractured cuts be so deep, no more can I hide this pain
I keep threading it together but life just throws me away
Empty cradle sways to this forgotten Uncle
Your best moment be my greatest fumble
Wish for years reversed to see her first smile
I stand the accused so you may never be on trial
This glue that once held me together
Just lay in pieces from this shattered mirror
Wiping away stains to see a lost believer
Shadows that hold me in darkness becoming clearer
Save me dear Brother
The sad thoughts wont leave me alone
No more can I sleep with all that screaming
Always to bare scars of that broken phone
Her glass jar of broken hearts be full of tears
Why doesn't she give me back these lost years
With torment as ink we finger paint our sleeves
No butterfly in caged misery to set free
I keep cutting it away
Why won't it ever leave me
Friends we lost in spirals of yesterday
Their souls circle through my blood down this drain
Would they return so brave to show me no shame
Holding me as I scream for Father to go away
Find me dearest Brother
When I drag myself into the rain
Hammers that beat my fist to chest
Porch lights flicker as lightning through my veins
Tied to my fate in this chair where father plays
Filling hallways to screaming out your name
No minutes held to watches of stolen time
Ever I be lost in this concept of feeling fine
Be the best of me with all those smarts
Spread those arms like the plane we couldn’t start
Reminders to find that birthday text I forgot to send
Answers to every are you OK question be just pretend
Adding to ashes of memories we called a friend
Losing all we love to addictions of death
My one true brother
Never did I want to be of any bother
Love will never leave me again as I sit by our Mother
By your side to every battle no matter how far
Always be you, my only true brave heart
