My Huckleberry Finn
My Brother
Please forgive me
Don’t think I can stand up today
My body so weak with words I cannot say
Regret, how it becomes the memories we neglect
I miss our conversations be they so far in day
No foolish pride to be my resolute
When I become the worst excuse
No friends left to pull away the recluse
Cursing down every cloud we tried to drown
Staring into the lake
Watching eyes close with her princess crown
Help me dear Brother
I have lost myself again this day
Keep miasing that love of our Mother
Her spirit still speaks to me in the thunder
Do you think she will be proud of me some day
Always will I try and be your keeper
With secrets we never need say
Behind you to wickets in every step
I lost my favourite glove again today
Come so far from crashing cars
Still can I hear her drowning lungs like it was yesterday
Always shall it be with me, this anchor
Dragging it down the dark hallway
Hold me dear Brother
What words we spoke above a grave
Digging away to bury our better years
Just to stare with no words to say
How the terror of Father becomes our fear
His chair of dread holding screams in my nightmares
Come hide with me under the bed with Mothers prayer
Close our eyes and take us back to the town fare
Happier I be in thought of sunny days
By that river where we fish forever
With no need of any word to complain
No home with nice biscuits can we return
When troubled storms be coming our way
Help me dear Brother
My heart has fallen to pieces again this day
Wore my best smile but she won’t even look my way
My sadness cuts so deep no more can I hide this pain
These threads hold me together but life keeps throwing me away
I missed most of your days lived as my cradle has become this grave
Your moments dear to this uncle I forgot to save
Wish for years reversed to see her first smile
I stand the accused so you may never be on trial
Yelling to my dark hell where is this smile you stole from me
Smashing every mirror leaves me to agony seeing what I dreamed to be
Wipe away the deceiver to see a lost believer
Shadows in darkness now becoming clearer
Will you save me dear Brother
These sad thoughts wont leave me alone
No more can I sleep with all that screaming
Always to bare scars of that broken phone
Her glass jar of broken hearts be full of tears
Why doesn't she give me back these lost years
Torments ink be our finger paint upon these sleeves
No butterfly in caged misery to set free
I keep cutting it away
Why won't it ever leave me
Keep thinking of those friends we lost in yesteryear
Their names still saved in caves engraved on walls of our fear
Would they return so brave to show me no shame
Holding me as I scream for Father to go away
Find me dearest Brother
When I drag myself into the rain
Hammers that beat my fist to chest
Come see the lightning run through my veins
No minutes held to watches of stolen time
Ever I be lost in this concept of feeling fine
Be the best of me with all those smarts
Spread those arms like the plane we couldn’t start
Reminders to find your lost birthday text
Thinking of days we could never pretend
Adding to ashes of memories we called a friend
Losing all we love to addictions of death
My lost heart called brother
Never did I want my sorrow to be of any bother
Love will never leave me as I sit by our Mother
Taking front position to every battle you need
I will take the hurt so you can believe to be the father I could never be
Always will I be you in every tissue you hide a laugh
My best version, my only true brave heart
